Forgetting how to progress

This past week leading up to my 25th birthday I cried every day. 

For some reason everything made me cry. 

I kept thinking I’m not where I thought I’d be at this point in my life. There are so many things I wish I could’ve accomplished by now. I was SUPER hard on myself and was in a downward spiral. But you know what?? I snapped out of it and realized... IT’S OK. Sometimes we set too high of expectations for ourselves that we forget how to progress. We get stuck in these mindsets that we should do things in a certain timeframe and if we don’t then we’re somehow failing. It is so easy to focus on the things that we're not good at or things we haven't accomplished, but yet its so hard to recognize the things we are good at and have accomplished. I am not sure if anyone can relate with me on this, but for me forgetting how to progress is a real struggle that I deal with on a daily basis. I get in these routines of going to work, going to school, going to church and sometimes these things are enough to consume my time and schedule that I find it hard to make time for anything else. I wear myself out and turn to the easy time fillers like watching tv and listening to music, to "give myself a break." But its not enough. Those time fillers aren't enough to fuel purpose. So how can we fuel purpose? How can we remember the gift of progression in our daily lives? 

This made me think about electronics. What do I always do before I go to bed even when I feel exhausted? I plug my phone in haha. I give it what it needs to maximize its potential the next day. So that's my quest for myself right now. Figuring out what I need to do every day to maximize my potential. I am honestly not really sure what that means at this point. I know some of the things that bring me joy and peace that I am going to make a bigger effort to make a part of my week. But there is a lot of unknown. I don't really know what is going to help me progress right now. It is going to take some trial and error to figure it out. But as it says in Helaman 12:1 "the Lord in his great infinite goodness doth bless and prosper those who put their trust in him."